Let the Journey Begin!
If I told you, "You are precious, and your life has innate dignity and worth," would you believe me? Why, or why not? I grew up being taught to believe that my life is precious and that in my very self I have dignity and worth and yet, for the first 30 years of my life, I truly struggled to believe that of myself. I deeply wanted to believe I was innately worthy of love - in fact that was a message I tried to preach to all whom I knew - that THEY were worthy of love, deserving of respect, and that their dreams were worth living for. Yet, for some reason unbeknownst to me, something prevented me from being able to believe this truth about myself from the core of my being.
Yes, it is good to be the possessor of virtues, but not if we end up being more concerned with the perfection of virtue instead of being able to embrace the messiness and imperfection of being alive.
My lived experience told me a different message from the one I was taught to believe. My lived experience told me that love could be earned, because when I pleased others, I received more affection. When I excelled, I earned respect. And when I fit the mould that the people in my life wanted me to fit, I was praised and petted and rewarded. In my growing up years I was often seen as a "good child", "good student", "good leader", "good Catholic girl". The adjectives often ascribed to me - which became my prison - were words such as "responsible", "mature", "trustworthy". You may be thinking - are these not good things? My answer to you would be that it all depends. Yes, it is good to be the possessor of virtues, but not if we end up being more concerned with the perfection of virtue instead of being able to embrace the messiness and imperfection of being alive. For the longest time I was so afraid of being cracked and flawed that most of my energy went into trying not to disappoint the world rather than growing into the unique presence and gift that my life could be for others.
it is when we stop being so concerned about how virtuous and good we appear to others and become more concerned about growing ourselves in authenticity and integrity that we can begin to make great progress
There is great freedom and joy from learning to live as finite, flawed, imperfect beings who are nevertheless capable of great generosity and love. Ironically, it is when we stop being so concerned about how virtuous and good we appear to others and become more concerned about growing ourselves in authenticity and integrity that we can begin to make great progress in becoming a blessing to the people around us.
For me, it was when I became more open to discover who I was innately instead of trying to become the person I thought I should be that I started to enjoy living. I realised that there was more than one way of being generous, more than one way of being gifted, more than one way of adding value to the lives of people around me. I realised that I became way more effective in my work and more life-giving in my relationships when I started embracing who I was instead of striving to be who I thought I needed to be.
When we try to twist ourselves into something we are not, we become a burden instead of a gift. But when we learn to appreciate the gift we have been given and be good stewards of our lives, we have the potential to become beacons of hope in our own unique way.
"Becoming Me" is not just a place for me to share the experiences of my ongoing journey. It is also an invitation to you to begin your interior journey into freedom, authenticity, and wholeness. We are all broken and wounded in our humanity. And we are all gifts. That's right - we are gifts. We often talk about our gifts such as our strengths and talents but too few of us live from the truth that our very BEING is a gift. When we try to twist ourselves into something we are not, we become a burden instead of a gift. But when we learn to appreciate the gift we have been given and be good stewards of our lives, we have the potential to become beacons of hope in our own unique way.
So if you would like to explore this invitation for yourself, join me. Listen to my podcast. Read my reflections on this blog. Ponder the images I share. Subscribe to my mailing list (scroll to the bottom of the page!) to receive more personal "behind-the-scene" musings in your email inbox, as well as updates and invitations to new resources and events as they come up. You can also find Becoming Me on Facebook and Instagram. Use as little or as much as you find helpful for you.
And if you choose to join this journey on Becoming Me, you are welcome, for however long or short a time you remain. My hope and prayer for you is simply that whatever interaction you have with Becoming Me might lead you a little further in your own quest to living more fully. May you live a life that you will be at peace with imprinting the world with - a life that is unrepeatable and uniquely YOU.
Let the journey begin!